My Semester Exams are going on and I have Math next and I should be worrying about that and practicing like a mad dog or whatever, but I think I should vent out everything before I start with a calmer mind. Writing kind of simplifies things for me and I feel like I discover something about myself every time I do so.
Since this is not an essay, I would not be stating the Oxford Dictionary's definition of social awkwardness.
I went to a party last night. A birthday party, that clearly wasn't the kind of party I've been to.I am not saying that the party was wrong and it shouldn't have been the way it was. No. It was very well arranged, it was really nice. The food was great too. But My idea of a party is something where people talk to each other because we obviously do not know every single person in the party. Small talk, I used to believe is what usually breaks the ice. But what do you do when people don't want to break the ice, when they are not very interested to talk to you and when all that they want to do is click pictures? Nothing I suppose, you sit like a loner.
We live more in pictures than in the moment we're actually breathing in. Maybe it's just me and I might as well be horribly wrong when I say that, but I don't believe this is how people make memories. But then it's just me and my idea; people are welcome to their opinion. My family is a little different and we usually don't celebrate birthdays and stuff because we don't have the time to and it is just another day, so big deal. But I have been to birthdays and back home, our idea of a birthday was where people talk about various things, like sometimes the conversations go really deep and we share experiences, and we listen to each other. Everyone's got some nasty joke and we laugh till our stomach hurts. We don't give fake photo-smiles, that's how I'd like to put it, "Fake photo-smiles".
I believe there is genuine happiness when we actually interact with one another, share experiences. Isn't that how it is supposed to be? Ofcourse taking pictures is important to capture the memory, but it is not the priority, it is not as important as being in the moment.
The only reason I felt socially awkward was because people weren't willing to talk when I was trying to talk. But you know what? I would never tag anyone as "Socially Awkward". People either don't want to talk or are not able to talk, reason could be anything.
But even though I felt horrible and I felt like I could have cried yesterday after the party, I am glad I went to the party, it gave me this wonderfully amazing experience that I'm never going to forget. It taught me how to never make anyone feel like an outsider or you know "Socially Awkward".
Love always,
Urja
Since this is not an essay, I would not be stating the Oxford Dictionary's definition of social awkwardness.
I went to a party last night. A birthday party, that clearly wasn't the kind of party I've been to.I am not saying that the party was wrong and it shouldn't have been the way it was. No. It was very well arranged, it was really nice. The food was great too. But My idea of a party is something where people talk to each other because we obviously do not know every single person in the party. Small talk, I used to believe is what usually breaks the ice. But what do you do when people don't want to break the ice, when they are not very interested to talk to you and when all that they want to do is click pictures? Nothing I suppose, you sit like a loner.
We live more in pictures than in the moment we're actually breathing in. Maybe it's just me and I might as well be horribly wrong when I say that, but I don't believe this is how people make memories. But then it's just me and my idea; people are welcome to their opinion. My family is a little different and we usually don't celebrate birthdays and stuff because we don't have the time to and it is just another day, so big deal. But I have been to birthdays and back home, our idea of a birthday was where people talk about various things, like sometimes the conversations go really deep and we share experiences, and we listen to each other. Everyone's got some nasty joke and we laugh till our stomach hurts. We don't give fake photo-smiles, that's how I'd like to put it, "Fake photo-smiles".
I believe there is genuine happiness when we actually interact with one another, share experiences. Isn't that how it is supposed to be? Ofcourse taking pictures is important to capture the memory, but it is not the priority, it is not as important as being in the moment.
The only reason I felt socially awkward was because people weren't willing to talk when I was trying to talk. But you know what? I would never tag anyone as "Socially Awkward". People either don't want to talk or are not able to talk, reason could be anything.
But even though I felt horrible and I felt like I could have cried yesterday after the party, I am glad I went to the party, it gave me this wonderfully amazing experience that I'm never going to forget. It taught me how to never make anyone feel like an outsider or you know "Socially Awkward".
Love always,
Urja
I guess people have to be more "You before me."
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