Hiraeth.

Dear Friend,

I long to belong to a place that would seem to have never existed in my wildest imagination. I don't know if that place was ever there in the first place or if it would ever come to me. IT wouldn't actually, nothing ever comes to you until you want it badly. But this is something I want badly.

I want to climb a mountain and by mountain I mean a literal mountain. I want to go up there and see what the world looks like, and I am not scared to climb a mountain. What I am scared about is that what if I did climb a mountain? What if, I did experience the scent of air up there? But there won't be anyone left to acknowledge what I did? I long to belong. A few things, a couple of incidents and a lot many circumstances can tear you apart leaving you nowhere, making you believe that the purpose, the purpose that made you climb the mountain was shattered in front of you and all you could do is just stand and watch and feel broken and worthless.

I never wanted to be in a situation like that. I don't know what I am expecting but I certainly do not want to be in a situation like that. I am not sure if I get a say in the circumstances I get into or if I have a control over everything I go through, but I would like to believe that even if they happen I will not be someone who is broken, 

I watch people go through so many heartbreaks each and everyday and I know that they too long for a place that is wonderful, a place where life is beautiful. I don't know who get to go where and I guess I will never figure out why. Some people get recognized and many don't. But sometimes, just one person and just one thing can change everything. It can make us believe that we don't have to strive or struggle to make ourselves known to everyone out there. We find our place in the right people's heart. We sneak in and it's effortless. 

                                                                            Love Always,

                                                                         Urja