Dear Friend,
I am 31 days late, but still, Happy New Year!
Like I had said in my previous post. December sets everything right and even if you've had a bad year, it just turns out to be alright when it's December.
But then I have had stuff going for years that have not yet turned out to be alright and many Decembers have come and gone. Suddenly, I feel very old, which is crazy because I am only 17. But then maybe this is the time you actually start feeling that way.
Anyway, I started writing this post because I was watching Shannon Miller's Olympic videos. I couldn't be a gymnast because there is no training here and even if there is, it was not available for me when I was a kid. I am so passionate about things like that, like Dance, Gymnastics, Ariel art forms and stuff like. My mom once told me that, 'you start planning about what you want in life and what you want to do in life and you think you have it figured out, only till life shows you what it has planned for you.' Maybe she is right. I could not be any of those because there is something else that I have to achieve. The thing is, I just don't know what it is yet. But I'll figure it out. We all figure it out in the end. Don't we?
It's just that sometimes it doesn't feel right to be in a place where you feel that you could have achieved something, if you had the chance and the opportunity to. I feel like that a lot these days probably because I wanted to be a gymnast but I am not even sure if my country has a gymnastic team. Even if it does, I can't start training now. I am way past the beginners age. Sometimes, age is just not any number.
Love always,
Urja
I am 31 days late, but still, Happy New Year!
Like I had said in my previous post. December sets everything right and even if you've had a bad year, it just turns out to be alright when it's December.
But then I have had stuff going for years that have not yet turned out to be alright and many Decembers have come and gone. Suddenly, I feel very old, which is crazy because I am only 17. But then maybe this is the time you actually start feeling that way.
Anyway, I started writing this post because I was watching Shannon Miller's Olympic videos. I couldn't be a gymnast because there is no training here and even if there is, it was not available for me when I was a kid. I am so passionate about things like that, like Dance, Gymnastics, Ariel art forms and stuff like. My mom once told me that, 'you start planning about what you want in life and what you want to do in life and you think you have it figured out, only till life shows you what it has planned for you.' Maybe she is right. I could not be any of those because there is something else that I have to achieve. The thing is, I just don't know what it is yet. But I'll figure it out. We all figure it out in the end. Don't we?
It's just that sometimes it doesn't feel right to be in a place where you feel that you could have achieved something, if you had the chance and the opportunity to. I feel like that a lot these days probably because I wanted to be a gymnast but I am not even sure if my country has a gymnastic team. Even if it does, I can't start training now. I am way past the beginners age. Sometimes, age is just not any number.
Love always,
Urja
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